Friday, December 19, 2008
Another Goodbye
With you as my shadow i dreamt a dream so clear, saw a reality so vague, felt a feeling that was never there. Now they blame you for what i went through, truth be told i did too, but the fact is that you were never mine to begin with.. The sight of you makes me want to be with you once more, but it's a wish i secretly hope never comes true. I cant see you disappear with a stranger besides you. I know that after this is done with i wont ever get to see, you will be nothing to me but a bitter memory but i guess its better this way.Oh, we could've been so perfect together, every body knows this and so do you, but you have other plans for life...and now ill try to make some of mine too. You could've bent me, torn me apart, shattered me into pieces but now you could only think of it . From this point on, i am a person i thought i could never become.......... stronger......i complete me!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Such an ordinary thought.
Is it the end or the endlessness....is it the silence or the noise.....the calm or the storm....is it your mind or your heart ....or me that you fear?....or do you fear yourself?......Tell me do you wait for an angel to captivate you...to save you...to set you free? Its a belief you've garnered for so long....but will it ever come true?.....will you ever be at peace until this unearthly being exalts you?.....Its not your fault to feel the way you feel....to think the way you think.....it happens to all of us ...we're just humans.........but do me a favor ...please unchain my thoughts.....for i have suffered an eternity in this madness ...........let me be empty!
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Every Fine Day...
Imagine waking up every morning, getting dressed, having a nice omelet breakfast cooked by your mom with tender and love and then leaving off to work ; all the time thinking about what a crappy day your going to experience. It becomes even bitter the moment you step into your office and realise its not a dream after all! Yeah well that's me, pretty much that's what i have been going through. Sometimes i feel that i somehow deserve this. My honeymoon with happiness was long over before it begun and now i am starting to think that day by day, little by little i am being robbed off my sanity and everything else i considered to be fun and exciting.
After graduating i got this job in a very promising power generation company which was supposed to help rid my country of its Power crisis. In the beginning it was good, not much, but good; i had work to do! But unfortunately 4 months in, something went really wrong. I wont divulge into the matter in detail but the rough idea is that ambiguities with the WAPDA coupled up with some political mess, brought the project to a dead halt and here i am!
Now after this ordeal we are in search for new projects but they dont seem to materialise and unfortunately this is what i do from 9-5 :
Come to the office, drink tea, read two newspapers i.e Dawn and The News, watch news channels ( only news channels are tuned) on a wall mounted LCD screen, read the newspapers again (incase i havent missed anything), watch some more news, surf the internet (youtube, facebook, blogs and movie trailers) sit idle and think about all the super powers i wish had and then start all over again! seems kind of fun doesent it? NOT AFTER 2 DAYS! (scracth that-- make it 1 day). Agonizing enough!? No! What about those days when some so and so official of a so and so company comes over and doesent decide to leave until he has had three cups of tea with biscuits, and by then its 1 hour past our office timing. That 1 hour extra spent doing nothing in the office is excrutiating mental torture and feels like hell when the clock ticks at such a sluggish pace. I feel like getting up and drilling every body with an AAR(Automatic Assault Rifle). Darn it, i have nightmares at night!
The only motivation of creating this blog is that I was going through some other blogs and then it struck me that i should write my own. Even though i am not an avid writer and it is clearly not my area of expertise but you know,
WHAT THE HECK!
After graduating i got this job in a very promising power generation company which was supposed to help rid my country of its Power crisis. In the beginning it was good, not much, but good; i had work to do! But unfortunately 4 months in, something went really wrong. I wont divulge into the matter in detail but the rough idea is that ambiguities with the WAPDA coupled up with some political mess, brought the project to a dead halt and here i am!
Now after this ordeal we are in search for new projects but they dont seem to materialise and unfortunately this is what i do from 9-5 :
Come to the office, drink tea, read two newspapers i.e Dawn and The News, watch news channels ( only news channels are tuned) on a wall mounted LCD screen, read the newspapers again (incase i havent missed anything), watch some more news, surf the internet (youtube, facebook, blogs and movie trailers) sit idle and think about all the super powers i wish had and then start all over again! seems kind of fun doesent it? NOT AFTER 2 DAYS! (scracth that-- make it 1 day). Agonizing enough!? No! What about those days when some so and so official of a so and so company comes over and doesent decide to leave until he has had three cups of tea with biscuits, and by then its 1 hour past our office timing. That 1 hour extra spent doing nothing in the office is excrutiating mental torture and feels like hell when the clock ticks at such a sluggish pace. I feel like getting up and drilling every body with an AAR(Automatic Assault Rifle). Darn it, i have nightmares at night!
The only motivation of creating this blog is that I was going through some other blogs and then it struck me that i should write my own. Even though i am not an avid writer and it is clearly not my area of expertise but you know,
WHAT THE HECK!
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